Why can't I live forever? I don't know

So, I decided that I have to make a clean break. I'm not going to get over her when it's like almost nothing has changed. I started going through my computer last night after I got home from work. Deleted her links from my Favorites - both journals, her DeviantArt page, and just for good measure, Shelley's blog as well. Took her off my buddy list, and out of my cell phone. (Both of those are cosmetic only; I knew her home number and screen names by heart. It's not like it's something I've done on purpose. I mean, hell, I still remember Chelsea's phone number and address by heart. I only used her address once, and her phone number... four times?) Deleted the text version of her blog that was in E:\Holding Bin, then I went through E:\Holding Bin\Backgrounds, which is the directory that my random background program uses, and deleted all the pictures with her in them. I didn't remove the pictures from Camera Captures, because, well, I still want them, and I usually don't delete pictures. I also don't just go through there anyway. Then, I came to our Trillian log. (I was already crying pretty hard at this point.) And... I couldn't do it. I really couldn't. That was the first really irreplaceable thing. I mean, I know I have to, but I don't know if I can. We'll see. Logged on to WoW, and took all of her characters off of my friend list on all three characters, and even removed them from the little notepad I use. That's another change that doesn't really do that much, since I know them anyway. But at least I won't know when she's online and stuff.

But I'm scared.

More on that later.