So I finally got a phone call, about 1 am or so. It's Rose, asking if her and Katie can get a ride home. They're at Lance's place, having a few drinks. I asked her why she never called me; her response was really weird and made no sense. It was something like Lance called her and they had to give him directions to her house, 'cause he was driving around on Hunter. I didn't really question her further about it - if they didn't want me there, that's fine. I don't know if it was just they forgot, or they figured I don't drink, so I wouldn't want to, or they just didn't want me there. I don't really care, either. She gave me directions (turns out he was over at Brian's complex), and I was there within five minutes. Neither one of them answered their cell phone when I called, so I just got in the bed of my truck and waited. About five minutes later, I heard them exiting an apartment. We hung around the truck for the next two (?) hours or so, just talking. I talked some with Seymour Muhammed, the international student from Morocco. He's pretty cool.
(Break for sleep, work)
But Katie and Lance seemed pretty close - they stood off a little bit, just talking (I think, I couldn't see). They talked pretty quiet most of the time; he stood with her arm around her; well, it was leaning on the tailgate, but she was definitely in "his" area, for lack of a better way to explain it. I think Lance totally went for Katie, 'cause Rose stood with me talking to Seymour the whole time. I just don't know. I mean, it's not like it's any of my business.
But it still hurts.



4 comments:
So yes it hurts, but you must move on... if it is meant to be, maybe it is. You should take iniative and talk to her though. Don't come on too brash but ease into conversation. Someone out there reads this.
That's the thing of it, though. I talk to her *all the time* - I've stopped by her work and hung out with her for multiple hours a few times, and we hang out with us and Rose fairly often as well. I don't think I could tell her how I feel, though. There's really no point.
You don't see a point? Human companionship. There is such a thing as being happy with someone else.
Allow me to rephrase my point. I very much agree with you - human companionship is a very desirable goal, and probably my highest (in the long term, of course). Although I'm not sure about my chances of finding happiness with someone else, and I find no point in telling her how I feel - not because I don't seek human companionship, which I do - very highly, but because it wouldn't help at all. I don't think we'll hook up, and telling her would have a chance of ruining the friendship we already have.
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