Should I call?

Jarrod's show is tonight, and I'm definitely going. I believe Michael is going as well. However, I don't know about Katie and/or Rose. I know Rose expressed some interest about going, but I haven't talked to Katie at all about it - though Rose says she'd like to go as well. I'm afraid to call, though - afraid that they're just humoring me, "putting up" with me, if you will. I know things are bad when I'm insecure about my relationship with Rose, who's probably the closest person I ha(d)ve. That's one of my greatest fears - that people I care about, that I sincerely want to be with, don't reciprocate, and are just humoring me. I think it stems from the Chelsea thing (just about everything does, really). So I'm still debating calling her; we'll see. I told Rose about it when I called her Friday night (which is one of the reasons I feel so weird right now - when I talked to her, she seemed like she just didn't want to talk to me. Which is fine - there's a ton of reasons why that'd be the case, especially considering that Mat was over there when I called. But knowing all of these things in my brain doesn't do a damn thing to change how I feel in my heart), but I don't know if she'll remember that whole thing all the way to now.

(For the next paragraph, Katie refers to Katie Wilkinson, the Katie at work)

I went and got my schedule from work last night. Katie was like, "Yeah, my throat hurts a lot. I think it's 'cause I've been kissing Nick too much. I've been hanging out with him every day (he lives in Arkanses; I take it he's down here for vacation or something) and kissing him every day." I was like, "That's great, Katie."

We're supposed to play tonight after the show, but I don't know if I'm up for it. My classes start next week, so Luke is going to run a game Monday nights, and we'll play my game whenever the oppurtunity arises. Which is cool, don't get me wrong - I don't feel like they're just trying to get out of my game, or just get rid of me (they were afraid I would). I won't be playing in this game, since I wouldn't be there 'til like 9:30; however, I might stop in occassionally just to see what another person DM'ing is like.

Heh. Time to shower and what-not. I still don't know what I'm going to do. I probably won't call, just like I didn't Saturday when I went to play DDR. It hurts more, but there's less chance of making myself look like an idiot.