You don't have to act like a star, making moves in the back of your car

Wow, it's been quite a while since I posted last. Eh.

So, the last thing that happened was that I had left; she accused me of charging out and slamming the door, and I went back and apologized for giving that impression - not my intent. We stood there for a bit, her inside and me standing outside, for a few minutes, just looking at each other. Neither of us was really sure where to go from there, so I asked her straight out - would she like to do this now, or another time? She said another time, and I left.

Logged on to WoW that night, and we talked. Not about things that were going on between us, but we talked normally, like everything was okay. Quite odd.

The next morning, I went in to work 10 - 5. We were running low on bacon and sausage, so they sent me over to Guadalupe to pick some up. I walk in - "You here for the sausage and bacon?" "Yep." He goes to the back to get it; I stand there and wait, over to the side so as not to get in the carhops' way. There is a carhop standing right in front of me, with her back to me. She turns and says, "Hi Billy."

It was Mindy.

Yes, that Mindy. Turns out she was living here now; had been working at Sonic for two weeks or so. Bizarre. I told her that it really hurt that she didn't call about hanging out, and she winked at me. Odd girl. That evening, I talked to the new girl, Catrin. Seems really cool - a little on the geeky side (I heard a definite Ren Fair reference). Turns out she plays DDR! We were both kind of excited to find out. Of course, she doesn't play at the arcade, never has. She plays at NexLevel, mainly. I, of course, am the exact opposite. So that was a long day.

Um... I'm drawing a blank at this point. I remember what happened last week, but this was two weeks ago. Um... crap. I wanna say... I went over there on Thursday and we watched Dodgeball? Yeah, I think that's it. I'm not entirely sure what day it was, in retrospect. But yeah, took Dodgeball over there and we watched it. Shelely was there too. We (Lilie and I, that is) ended up somewhat snuggled up. Our heads were at opposite ends of the couch, but we were rubbing each other's legs, or feet, or something like that. She bit me on the arm, right above the elbow. It kinda hurt. She also bit me on the left shoulder, on the inside part.

Lemme think... I really need to keep more up-to-date on this stuff, so that I can get it all down. I know I drove up to Austin with Rose at one point, to take her to get her books, sell some back, and talk to one of her teachers. A'ight... um...

Saturday, Mindy stopped by my Sonic. I didn't realize it at first; she parked on 25(ish) and ordered two people's worth of food. After she finished ordering, I looked out at the car, and realized that it was a green Ford pickup, with the new curvy look. I was like, "No. No way." So of course, it was. Jessica went out to talk to her; she was with some guy named Travis who was her boyfriend. Fair enough. I was agonizing, trying to figure out why she came to my Sonic. There are two simple possibilites. A, that she was just trying to screw with me, or B, it's more convenient. I do remember Jessica mentioning that she thought she saw Mindy at Park North (which is right down the street from my Sonic) over the summer. If that's the case, it would make sense that she stopped by ours. Though, even if I lived right by the other Sonic (and I live a lot closer to that one than I do to mine), I'd still go to mine for the half-off discount. So, it's not quite a gimme. But, well, I'd have to go with B, it was just more convenient.

Wednesday, the four of us - Kevin, Lilie, Shelley, and myself - all went to Mana's for dinner. That was... interesting. It was really annoying, 'cause people kept bringing up the fact that Lilie and I weren't together anymore. I mean, I'm okay with it, but I do still like her a lot, so it's kind of annoying. For example, Kevin and I were whispering back and forth for a bit, and Shelley made some comment - "They may not be sleeping together anymore, but we are. Tell me." I was like, 'Thanks, Shelley.' Earlier in the day, I had made a joke about being illergic to Lilie, since I had only gotten sick - the death flu from Janelle, and whatever bug was going around the carhops - after we went out. She said something about how I couldn't be, since we used to sleep together without issue.

So yeah, that's about that. We're not together, doesn't look like we'll be getting back together anytime soon, if ever. I really don't konw what's going on between us. Sometimes, she acts like she wants to be really close, and other times, like she barely knows me. So, I'm just taking my cue from her. If she wants to call, to hang out, sure. But I'm not going to make the first move anymore. Like she was borrowing my DVD burner, and I had to get it back to rip Anchorman. I'm going to wait until she calls back to take it back over. It's a defense mechanism, I think - I'm really insecure about relationships - romantic, friendship, or otherwise - so when I get really confused, I tend to just wait and see how they react. I still like her. If she were to come in to Sonic one day and say something along of the lines of "Hey Billy, I've dealt with my issues, and I"d like to get back with you", I'd agree in a heartbeat. But I don't forsee that happening any time soon. I'll always like her, always have a little place in my heart where I have daydreams of running into her and hooking back up...

Anyway.

So that's that on the Lilie saga.

I don't really remember what I was going to talk about in regards to "Why I hate driving so much". WoW pictures are ready to post, though I'll probably wait another day or two. I'm also going to do a run-down on what UI mods I use (~10, for the record, thought I just added two while writing this statement).

So, I'll ramble on about Lilie a little more later. I've probably got a few random entries to make as well; those will come in the next few days as well.

Oh yeah, at one point, she stopped by to let me know (Thursday?) she'd been to court and finally finalized the divorce. She was really happy about that, so that's good.

I just went to drop of Anchorman at Blockbuster (I forgot to put the DVD in the box, which means I'll have to do it later) and switch out store keys at Sonic. Cat died her hair blonde. It's something of a shock. That, and as I was turning left onto Holland, Lilie was sitting at the light, about to turn left onto RR12. I looked at her as I was turning RIGHT IN FRONT OF HER, though she didn't react at all. Either she didn't see me, or she didn't want to. I could see it going either way on this one (yes, I'm a girl and over-analyze things too much. If it bothers you, quit reading). There's a decent chance she didn't see me - she's probably pretty tired, and doesn't tend to look around a whole lot; on the other hand, I drove right in front of her, and my truck is fairly unique and she knows what it looks like. I'm definitely leaning towards "Just didn't see you", which is what she'll say if it comes up either way. I just don't know with her at all anymore. It kinda hurts.

But I'm going to get off that subject now, 'cause I don't feel like going through everything.