I do some strange things sometimes

So it looks like I'm not going to be taking Discrete I this semester, which isn't that big of a deal. It is, but I'll live. Looks I won't be starting class 'til 10, which is a decent upside. I'm thinking about walking to (and from) class, which will be good for a couple reasons. I won't have to worry about finding a parking space, and it'll definitely be good exercise and put me out in the sun some more. Campus isn't *that* far from where I live, so it won't take that long. The only problem would be if I have to get to work quickly, but I can of course just take my truck on those days, if necessary.

Work sucked today. 12 - 7 is actually a nice shift, but i had to cook with Dennis Leech. Don't care for him at all. He's kind of annoying - and several of the other people there (Allison, Tracy, Freddie) all asked me about having to work with him. It's nice to have other people agreeing with me about someone being annoying now, instead of two months later.

Cooked for two hours with Freddie, which is cool, because him and I get along real well and our work reflects that. I wouldn't mind cooking nights more often, except I have to deal with the new guys more.

School starts tomorrow. I don't have my books yet, and won't until I get paid or my loan comes in. I'd much prefer to have them now, but that's just not in the cards at the moment. I'm basically ready other than that, I just have to put everything together. I'll do that sometime tonight.

Oh, and had the following conversation with Heather:

Billy: Congrats on the new job. Billy: So I was wondering if sometime when we're both not busy (which is going to be less and less likely, I know) if you'd like to get together sometime and maybe... Billy: make out? Heather: what? Heather: uh.. not really Heather: kinda just want friends Heather: kinda just want friends Billy: Damn. Billy: Fair enough.

Why? Don't know. I've always really, really wanted to kiss her. Her lips were really shiny when we went and saw Bourne Supremacy. Then there was the time we went canoing (canoeing?), and she GOT NAKED RIGHT BEHIND ME. (Or changed her clothes, which doesn't necessarily mean competely naked, but pretty damn close). I understand it's a trust thing - she trusted me enough not to 'sneak a peek' or something like that. Not that I would - don't misunderstand me. I'm not a subtle person, nor do I act on things I think might be subtle hints, because I'm often wrong, and even when I'm not, the risk, while possibly worth it, isn't one I want to take. I think I might have trailed off a little bit. Let me try again. I'm not a subtle person, nor do I pick up on or offer subtle hints. I have no doubt that that 'attribute' is one that will hinder me in life, especially in relations with the fairer sex.

I don't know where all that came from. In fact, I'm not quite sure what I've been trying to say this whole post (after the bookkeeping details, of course). Something about how non-reciprocal affection, and how much it sucks. And closure. I don't know. Maybe we had a chance for a good, close, platonic relationship. Which is cool, don't get me wrong. And I'm not stupid. Things wouldn't ever have worked out between us.

Hell, I don't even know what I'm trying to say anymore. You're on your own.