I've lost her

Went to speech class for the first time today. Technically, that's not true. I had to go to Speech Class in Kindergarten - I had a speech impediment due to my delayed acquisition of language skills (four years old). But I went to my first day of Intro to Speech Comm today. It went okay. I have to give two speeches - one informative, one persuasive. Nothing terribly hard, but I'm not terribly fond of public speaking. But it looks promising, which is good after the Philosophy disappointment.

I've lost Katie. There's no doubt about it. It's the same thing that plagues a lot of relationships that become long distance - of course, it's a little odd to be using this model to describe this scenario, since the relationship in question is only a friendship, which I haven't lost.

But bear with me, because you know what I mean, and I know you know, and so forth.

She's moved to a new place in a new town, and her time is full of new experiences and new people. I've nothing really to offer her. It just wouldn't make sense for us to hook up.

That doesn't mean I can just let her go, though. Knowing something in my mind and accepting it in my heart are, of course, two totally different things.

Maybe I'll tell her now, just for the hell of it.

It hurts.