2003-12-21

Yeah, so we got down to Galveston okay. Hung out there.... I was *SO* tired - four hours of sleep, plus four hours of driving, in the past two days. So I kept almost falling asleep. At one point, I did actually fall asleep. But I was awoken pretty quickly - at most, half an hour. The problem, though, was that I was so tired, so I entered the deep part of sleep really quickly. So I had this incredible headache. I mean... it was bad. Easily worse than any I'd gotten from eye strain... I couldn't really think. If I stopped and noticed it too much, I wanted to puke. Or cry. Or something like that.

Suzie sent me for some Imatation Crab Meat and Smoked Salmon 'round midnight or so. I got back, and a little while later, that's when it happened. There's one matress in Chris's room, and there were five of us. So we were all gonna lie on the bed. Hmm... Normally, that wouldn't bother me - I'm a physical person as is, and I would've been lying next to Suzie. However... with the headache that I had, I really really didn't want to be lying in bed with four other people. One would've been okay - especially if it was Suzie... So I decided to go sleep in my truck. Suzie FREAKED OUT. It was really weird. Chris and Jonathan did too. Well, a little - they more protested. But I went, because I'm incredibly stubborn at times. I was so hurt, 'cause she didn't even hug me as I left. I can understand, though - apparently, I hurt her as well. She said something like "I wanted to spend time with you, even if it was just sleeping together" (that might be a small paraphrase, but not much). And I wanted to spend time with her too. I really care for her. But I didn't want to put people out. And I know I was. And I HATE it when people make a fuss over me and what-not. I HATE it. I HATE it so much. So I went out and slept in my truck. It was kinda cold, but not really. I woke up a few times, though; at one point, I went driving around. Galveston is... odd. Especially at three in the morning. Chris woke me up at 8, gave them a ride to school; Suzie was asleep, and inside, so I couldn't get in. She finally woke up; we were okay, and hung out for an hour. I had to leave; got back in time for work. (I HATE Dave.) Worked today as well.

I'll do some analysis later.

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