Just got back from shopping (half an hour ago or so). Janelle (my little sister; we're both old enough now to really talk to each other - it's awesome!) and I went and saw the new Harry Potter movie at 10, then we went shopping at HEB. I'd sort of forgotten how much fun it is to go shopping at all hours of the morning, and I've now gotten to share that with my little sis. Anyhoo...

Today's subject: Am I mature?
The problem with this topic is that there's so many different ways to approach it. Let's start off by putting it in perspective. I'm 19, going to turn 20 in about 21 hours. So that puts me square in young adulthood, with full adulthood here or on its way quickly. I go to UT, and will be a junior next semster, and a senior at the beginning of next year. I still live at home, and commute from San Marcos to Austin every day. I think that's sufficient background. Now, onto the question. I mean, my taste in music is definitely immature. I still *love* pop. Britney Spears, Spice Girls, Kylie Minogue, I *love* it. I also enjoy some other stuff too - Stray Cats, Weird Al, techno, and some classic rock (Charlie Daniels). Most of my friends, or people I associate with, listen to *real* music. It's odd. Let's see... most of my friends are into pimping out their computers, hacking, that kind of thing. I don't really care. I've no real interest in drinking. Never have (had any alcohol enter my system, that is). So, I think it's safe to say that my personal tastes are definitely immature, relative to my age group. But why? Probably because of my relatively socially isolated life.

Then, there's emotionally. That's a much harder area to consider. I definitely have no problem with the gamut of human emotions - love, hate, jealousy, fear, etc. And I'm pretty sure I feel the right ones at the appropriate times. I may be comletely awkward around girls, but at least my heart is in the right place (I hope).

I also have no problem accepting responsibility for my actions. I think that ranks as very important when determining maturity. I can set aside personal desires to achieve a goal; momentarily reduce my sense of self to pass a tough situation. I think I'm mature in that sense.

But even so, it just doesn't feel like a resolution. I just don't feel that mature. I mean, I see people around me, and it seems like they're starting their actual lives, while I'm just some dinky kid. Perhaps part of it is just my apathy showing through, but it's still a major nagging.

Just checked out Zara's livejournal; she did end up going to RenFest this weekend, which is why she hasn't been online. Which is bad, because I miss her, and good, because it's hard to make a fool of yourself when she's not around.