Let's make the most of the night like we're gonna die young

Seriously, wtf.  I could have sworn I took this down completely - deleted all the posts, then changed the domain name, then registered for a new blog under the old one to remove any caches.  Guess I left myself a back door?  Well played, past me.

So, what's going on in my life?

Work.  I was promoted to be a tech lead, I'm in charge of the BCF project and am generally regarded as a senior developer. (I've been there 1 year, 9 months as a reference point). In general, it's going well. The client loves me, I spent most of late November through mid February onsite in New Jersey, lots of flying. It's super stressful right now, since we have a huge delivery next Friday, and they plan on going to pilot in May, with a super aggressive rollout schedule that has it in every store by mid-September. I have a ton of PTO that I have to figure out how to use, which is always interesting.

Social life.  Non-existent. But seriously, that's true.

Romantic life.  Katie and I broke up about 6, 7 months ago. Oh! Guess I should backup a little further and say that we were definitely together. I told her I loved her, she reciprocated (even said so!) So yeah, I did (do) love her. But it just wasn't going to work out. She was still so, so , so possessive and jealous. Like, she flipped out when Nygren started working at Starmount, because she was young, attractive, and we got along well (ok, that sounds *way* worse than it really is). Or like, when I'd go to Dragon's Lair to play Catan. Or, if I wanted to do Game Club at work. Coincidentally, she thought it was just 'cause she didn't play games with me (??!!), but that had nothing to do with it. I just couldn't handle the super insecurity. That, plus not knowing when her self-harming tendencies would get the better of her. It was very emotionally trying. Maybe I was in the wrong? She was definitely working on her issues, and the last time I talked to her (two months ago), she was doing much better (though maybe that's in part to us breaking up? I don't know). Maybe I should have helped her work through her issues more, supported her, been there for her? Yeah, probably. I fucked that all up. I still get depressed about the whole thing from time to time (like this morning on the way back from the gym). But, that's all over and done with. I'm fairly certain she doesn't really want anything to do with me ever again, and that's probably for the best.

Met a cool girl named April, we're pretty good friends now, but it feels like I was supposed to take a shot, didn't, and missed some chance there. More on that later. About to meet someone named Emily from OKC today or tomorrow.  More on those later.

Joined a gym, lost about 10 pounds, hope to get in shape.  More on that later.

Ke$ha-- Die Young